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Thursday, April 28, 2011

Tamat Praktikal

Posted by rabiatul adawiyah on April 28, 2011 in Ups and Downs,

Salam Alayk...

Sebenarnya dah lama nak post entri ni, tapi sebab internet asyik tak ok..so terpaksa procrastinate. hehe..

Pengalaman praktikal sebagai guru pelatih di SMK Alam Megah 2. Sekolah ni terletak di seksyen 28, berdekatan kawasan kilang. Waktu mula-mula memang agak terkejut dengan budaya di sekolah harian. Tapi lama-lama makin lali. Pergi ke tempat kerja (sekolah) seawal 6.30 pagi meredah perjalanan sejauh 17km yang bukannya lurus, tetapi penuh dengan liku-liku (huhu) seperti traffic light (s) (tak ingat dah berapa), jalan berlubang sini sana, roundabout (s), dan kenderaan yang bersimpang-siur..bila difikirkan Allah jualah yang menjaga nyawa kita..sebab keadaan trafik macam yang saya lalui hari-hari ni..senang sangat nak berlaku kemalangan. Tapi Alhamdulillah, Allah masih memberi peluang. Pernah la accident sekali, tapi bukan dengan kenderaan lain, Alhamdulillah.. mujur ada yang membantu. Tapi ada hikmahnya berlaku kemalangan tu...(biarlah rahsia,hehe). Balik dari sekolah pula waktu mula-mula praktikal dalam 5 petang..jadi 6 petang baru sampai rumah kalau jammed. Jadi dari 6.30pagi hingga 6petang masa saya banyak di luar rumah. Langsung tak sempat tanya khabar ahli rumah. Balik saya sangat penat, kena buat lesson plan, dan sediakan teaching materials (handouts dsb) untuk students. Mula-mula sangat penat sampai ingat nak pindah rumah ke seksyen 28. Tapi sebab tak dapat, jadi saya kuatkan semangat. Hari-hari berulang alik 17+17km. Kena pulak handle pelajar, jaga persatuan petang2, cat mural untuk PPDA dan mesyuarat guru. Bila dah mula dapat suaikan diri dengan sekolah, semuanya biasa. Alah bisa, tegal biasa kata orang. Sepanjang di SMK Alam Megah 2 saya berpeluang mengenali sistem persekolahan dengan lebih mendalam, keadaan pelajar di sekolah harian biasa (sebab tak pernah ada pengalaman ni), rakan sejawatan dan senior. Saya berkongsi meja guru dengan seorang lagi guru pelatih, Zarin. Sebelah saya seorang guru senior. Beliau suka bercerita dan bergurau. Saya panggil dia Kak Sofya. Tapi dengan pelajar, beliau sangat garang. Saya belajar sikit-sikit nak jadi garang macam dia~. Kak Sofya sangat ramah dan baik hati dengan saya dan Zarin. Beliau antara guru yang kami kagumi selain Kak Rozita, guru cemerlang BM. Hm..di sekolah, banyak kenangan antara saya dan para pelajar. Bermula dengan masalah nak ikut cakap cikgu, sampailah yang kuatkan semangat dengan ketekunan mereka menyiapkan kerja yang diberi. Merekalah racun, mereka jualah penawar. Harap pemergian cikgu dari sekolah akan diiringi dengan doa dari kalian..

"To all students of 2Cahaya & 4Murni, all the best and..behave~"

p/s- ~Jadilah seperti lilin yang menerangi orang lain. Jangan jadi seperti duri yang mencucuk diri dan menyakiti orang lain...

Thursday, April 14, 2011

iN WAITINg.

Salam Alayk..

I can't help but to think of so many things these days. The truth is, I was thinking about things revolve around me. Only me. (How selfish I could be).

I was not sensitive towards my other friends. "They are not just friends, they are more than that."Ones that sometimes have fragile hearts too, I should put that in mind and handle the hearts with extra care. But yeah, most of the time I didn't. In fact, I am selfish I think, that I would not be able to understand their feeling. Many times I said to myself, how could they ever said something like that? Can they try to understand us more? We are struggling here! Doing our job and so on so forth. But the sad thing is, when I have the chance, many times I had turned them down to at least give them some visit.

It was like, how I wish I could rewind the time and change everything that was very uncapable for me. I feel ashamed of myself, because of my ignorance of how others would perceive their life, their hope is actually part of my responsibility when I am on top of the position. (It's not an ordinary one, you know, not the you-do-your-job-and-I-take-care-of-mine thing). I feel ashamed for I always have to use my practical as an excuse, just for many things that would be much more important to them. And if they'd felt down, when I did not make my effort to visit them, you could imagine the guilty I would feel.

Yet, I just a human. I am not a robot. I have days when I feel so frustrated over things that had happened in workplace, that had taken me all my free time to adjust the feelings. Then, when I was in a comfort zone, I had to keep the momentum so that no other bad things created. I was once in this deep black hole, for negative sayings that keep coming into my sight, my ears, and my wrenched heart.

I learn that not all feelings and things could be shared. And not all of them are understood by the person we thought they would understand. I experienced the saddest event in my life, when I have to accept this one word uttered by a person whom once I thought I could rely on. So, moral of the story is, I must be careful. No one can understand what I am trying to do accept me. My own soul.

p/s-Still moving in this body, given another opportunity to live. So which grace do you still wanted to lie on? I just hope I can perform my obligations before I leave this world...pray for me :)

p/s/s-this post isn't a piece of writing mere excuses. It's to express my deep feeling I mind you. So only those who understand my jargon would ideally understand. *Peace*

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Mujahid

Posted by rabiatul adawiyah on April 02, 2011 in Diary,

Salam Alayk...gambar Mujahid yang terbaru, khas untuk tatapan adik beradik ku yang berada jauh dari rumah. Dan juga yang tengah tension2 sebab exam~ relaks kan diri seketika..;-)

adik sape la ni..